Miss. Barrett

I am overridden with guilt right now. I took a friendship for granted and in the process lost someone very dear to me. Little did I know, time was running out and I would soon find myself in a position where "sorry" came too late. I dont even know where to begin. I feel a lot of different emotions right now. More than anything, I am sadden by the life that has been lost. Jessi was an amazing friend to me. He treated me like family and had my back through thick and thin. There isnt a single bad thought or memory that crosses my mind when I think of him. I have no one to blame but myself for the fact that he passed while we were on bad terms. I only wish I knew how to look into the future so that I could see this coming and know that it was time to make a mends with him.

I am terribly heart broken for Krissy, one of my best friends and Jessi's fiance. He passed away 2 days before they were to be married. I cant even imagine what she is going through right now. All I know is that Krissy is so honest and so kind and the last thing she deserves is to be mourning the death of the man she loves. I wish I knew all the right things to say but I have never been so lost for words.

I dont really know what else to say here. Im still in a state of shock. This does not feel real at all. I havent cried yet but that is sure to come soon enough. I know the reality of all this will hit me when I least expect it. Im trying to prepare myself for that but how do you mentally armor yourself to take on the fact that someone close to you has died?

Appreciate the people in your life. Hug your friends. Humble yourself. Learn to say "Im sorry" before its too late. Love your friends. Love your enemies. Dont be afraid to say "I love you". Choose to forgive. Choose happiness. Let go of grudges because they arent worth it! Be in alignment with God. Pray. Listen to your heart. Live your life and never take a single moment for granted!